Heregoesnothin

Okay, so today is not going as planned. My mom brought up a good point and I've been thinking about it for awhile. I just don't know what to do. I've been thinking the same thing that she has.
I thought I could trust people unconditionally but now I realized that I'm not as trusting as I would have liked to believe. I hate being so naive. This is getting ridiculous. I'm tired of being taken advantage of because I always think people are sincere. Maybe this is my fault like everything else. I'd rather it be my fault, honestly, than to find out people aren't who they say they are because than I won't feel so stupid for believing what people tell me.

I don't think I could make it in this world alone because I believe everything everyone always says. I don't even think thats correct grammar. Whatever.

I don't want to start rebuilding the walls I've taken down but I have a feeling I'm going to try to handle everything on my own again, Maybe I'll finally realize the ONLY person you can ever trust is yourself. I will not rely on anyone anymore.

Another thing I realized is that I'm going to NEW YORK and NO ONE is stopping me. Everything about small city life depresses me. Everyone has their drama here and I'm sure there is plenty of drama in New York but it's such a big city I can get away from it. The idea sounds so much better every day. I know that I'm taking such a big risk moving there but I have to prove I can do it to myself. I'm not going to give up on my dreams; no matter how ridiculous and out of reach they seem. Sometimes I may give up hope but I know that I'll be put on the right track sooner or later.

"Meet me at the skyline, I'll wait for you."